A letter addressed to my beloved as I lay in my bed waiting for death to take me.
Don't waste your tears over things we both can't control. Death is sitting at my bed, watching, waiting for my last breath. Let me just hold your hand close to my heart.
Let me take a closer look at your eyes that swept me away the first time I saw you because in my final destination, you will not be there. I'll be alone, in pain, trudging the road I don't want to take. I'll be longing for your love, seeking for your laughter.
No, don't give me the look of pity in your eyes for I have accepted what fate has brought me. Just keep those tears and let it flow when I can't see you anymore. But for this time, for the last time, let me see you smile. Let me feel the warmth of your breath, the tenderness of your love. I want to bring with me memories of your touch, because in the place where I am going there's no magic, no sweet-nothings, no heartfelt promises.
I am sad because I am leaving you and there's no way that I'll be coming back. Death is inevitable but love is everlasting. I may be gone for good, but my love will stay with you, until the sun doesn't shine anymore, until the flowers wither, and the birds refuse to sing the melodies we shared. I don't want to go but there's nothing I can do. Because in this game we call life, we are just players, sometimes we loss sometimes we win, and my time has come. God is taking me off the playing field for good.
Death doesn't sadden me. It's the thought of leaving you that pains my heart so much. We have built together dreams and wishes. We have nurtured a love we thought we could share for years. But I have failed. My heart and soul are willing but my body is slowly taking me away from you. I have failed because I won't be there to cheer you up when you'll be down, to give you a hug for your every success, and to witness your climb to reach for your star.
When I don't breath anymore, wipe those tears away and leave the sadness in your heart inside my tomb. Wear the smile you used when we first met and face the future with a happy heart. Tomorrow promises a brand new day and another chapter of your life. Make my end a beginning for you. You still have a long way to go and the future looks bright for a thoughtful, true , and loving woman like you.
I will miss you.
(fiction)
